Anyway, I can't seem to write this year. I've started two different stories, and both refuse to flow. I realize I'm supposed to turn off my internal editor for NaNo, but I don't think that's the issue. Sure, I don't really like anything I have, but the problem isn't that I just have to go back and re-edit and re-edit, it's that I can't write *more*. To do NaNo, I have to be able to just start writing and let it flow for awhile, but every word for both of these stories was like pulling teeth. Both of them have bits I like, and both are good stories I could probably normally do, but I can't go anywhere. This may be because I've been sick since November 1 (AGAIN, I was almost better and then caught something the night I went to see Lemony Snicket [Oct 31] so it's all stuffed up hacking again). But it's kind of getting to be a problem.
I can't figure out what to do. I can't write at this pulling-teeth rate because I don't have TIME to write this slowly. I really want to write something, but both my ideas have died hideously so far, and though I realize I'm probably being overly critical of both of them, it doesn't make a difference in that I still don't feel like I can write to either of them.
I want to go home.